Hello again.

Today i lost a fight, more of a battle the way see it.

So after school two of my friends were stealing (playing) with my 3rd friends stuff. so i joined in. usually i dont, but today i was pissed because we tried to tackle me, and only ruggers can tackle other people. so we kept playing until there was a guy from another class, he came up and helped my 3rd friend get back his stuff.

so at first i was laughing and playing when he came and tried to take the things away from me (which belongs to my 3rd friend). then he grabbed hold of my hand and told me to return it to my 3rd friend. Then, i still passed it on to my other 2 accomplices but failed, resulting in my 3rd friend getting his stuff back. following this, the guys whom we did not know that came to help my 3rd friend said :" i hate douchebags like you." it was pretty funny at that time, and my brain worked like mad, whether to retaliate, or laugh, apologise,or use the normal term : "none of your buisness".

but i chose to kept quiet. because the best option would be to apologise, but he would say:"dont say sorry to me, say sorry to the guy who you bullied". and that would make me look even more stupid, so i kept quiet. i knew that the battle had already been lost and any more action would make me look even worse, because i was at the wrong. and so i respected him.

he was the first person in many months to make me realised what ive become. usually im a nice person, but someitmes i may become very bad. its just a habit. so he made me realise what i had become, someone i am not proud of.

it made me realise what were the values which i so strongly acted on but neglected at this point of time. integrity, peace, forgiveness, courage, perseverance. these were the values that made me good. i forgot all of them, and today, i got it back.

i thank you, my friend, for making me realise what i did wrong, and i will in future try to change my habits